It's Midnight....*yawnz* im sooo sleepy... reached home a while ago..Quite a tiring day...but fulfilling as well..our plan to have a surprise farewell party for Fuad went well...tho he was an hour late...hehe..then Mandarin class was gd too...as always, i was the loud hailer in class...hahah Fizah said she thinks I swallowed a mic...hahah yeah yeah..i know i have a booming voice..it runs in the family i must say..hehe sorry u guys..cant be helped... :|
Raudhah fetched me home n we went driving for a bit..then we went home n continued talking under the void deck..hah dats wat happens everytime we meet..hehe we cant stop talking n laughing...
Well..all in all..i had a great day today...tho i did not get to meet my darling :( he's off today but unfortunately I had to work till 10pm....*sigh*..what to do...its all abt the money babe! ahha...so kental...he cudnt fetch me either coz he had soccer tournament...but its ok! coz i know i'll have the weekends to spend with him...yey!!...looking forward to it...n he sound happy when he called me earlier..said he scored a goal..im happy for him too...its always football...haha...it gets irritating once in a while...when it gets too much...ah but i love him so it really doesnt matter.:)...
There's a Metro sale at the expo...tink i'll ask fadly if he wants to go n check it out...
Gotta go shower...then i'll wait for him to call..hmmm....between now n then till i hear from him again...i'll be lovin him...love me...:)
Nitey Nyte World....:) Yaaayyyyyyy!!!

fall in luv@12:13 a.m.

Ok well...let me dedicate this entry to my 2 fav bugs; Shak n Falah for constantly bugging me to update my blog...malas ahh....mcm kental pulak i feel...*sigh* oh well...i'd do anything to make u guys happy tau...ehehehe..bangga tak?

Hmm how shall i begin eh...? 1stly, its been a wonderful week for me...tho i had a stomach upset yesterday...Im a happy gal nonetheless lah...things have been great between me n fadly...work? i cant be bothered to think abt work lah now...just let me be happy pls...ehehe..i think coming to work has been gd coz each day i know i'll meet shak there...thanks shak for agreeing to be a cleaner for my sake..ahahhaha....*evil laugh* (well i know u dint do it for me as much as for the money! hah!)....shak...apa yg aku aleh2 teringat smlm nya blog i read...well u know whose blog im refering to ...LOL... ahhahaha...

well....let me recall...hmmm what did i do eh last sat?...oh! i know...i went to JB with my darlin...oh my god...the immigration building was packed with people..luckily Fadly suggested for us to go out earlier than usual...its usually after Zuhur or after Asar. But we decided to meet at 12 instead coz he had to work the next day n dint wanna reach home so late...
it was really2 crowded, the aircon was NOT working..the officers were terribly taking their own sweet time to stamp the passports....ohh yes!! oh yes!! n NOT to mention those irritating, ngodor people who kept trying to cut my queue...i just cant stand such people....arghhhh...
We finally reached JB at 4pm...yeah...dat long...i was famished...we had pizza at pizza hut and then went to City Square to window shop...Fadly went home happy coz he managed to get the things he wanted real cheap!....i was happy tooooo....wohhoooooOO...Going back wasnt very bad...i fell asleep in the bus tho...was so exhausted...

Sunday...went to Kem Dian's Campfire...planned to go to the airport to meet falah n the rest but it was too late by the time the campfire ended...but the campfire was good....good food...hehe...enjoyed myself bbqing...reached home midnight...

Monday...ahh work as always...met Fadly at night..brought down some food...made him some chicken soup coz he said his throat was sore...I wanted to laugh when I saw him sipping the soup..ahah God knows apa rasa dia..hehe...but Fad kata sedap...hmmm was he simply being nice?? ahhaha....

Well Tues...yesterday, had a stomach upset...dint stay for the tarian clinic...luckily Sheerin was willing to take over...reached home around 8pm...felt fat!!....so me n odah went to exercise a bit near my place...I rollerbladed, odah jogged...then balik....makan! hahaha....its always like dat...ahaha...

I think this is enuff ah...this blogging thingy is stupid ah...hahha..merepek...mcm theres nothing else better to do...i'd rather eat my mom's chicken....:p

ByeeZZZ....Be HappY, People!

fall in luv@8:40 p.m.

Ustazah Ainon, wife to the late intelligent yet exytremely humble islamic leader,Ustaz Taha Suhaimi passed away at 4.25pm this afternoon...my mom was there when she was taken to be with Allah s.w.t. My mom said that it was a very peaceful process. She requested her son to read Surah Yaasin for her and when he reached the last verse, she echoed his recitation before she breathed her last breath....

Subhanallah....she was a gd servant of Allah....n it was evident even when Malaikat Maut came to take her life...

This is an example of a person who deserves to be in Jannah with our beloved Prophet Muhammad s.a.w....

Al-Fatihah.

fall in luv@2:11 a.m.

It's 1.05am..i shud be sleeping already..well i'l do dat after this...

My mom's fren's husband I mentioned abt on thurs passed away yesterday...Innalillahi wa inna ilaihi raji'un...its sad..my mom told me dat her fren cudnt stop crying..I mean who cud sey?!..its sad..she has small kids to care for..hmmm...the people u love are always taken away from u too soon... :( Allah can just say "kun" n then ting! it happens...oh well....im sure there's a hidden blessing behind everything...n God knows ur strength better than urself..so im sure no matter how hard it is, the wife will manage...InsyaAllah..

Well...I had to work till 5pm this afternoon..Falah came, surprised me...yey! we hugged...i miss her..i hope she'll stay strong..im sure she will...reached home ard 5.30pm......Washed up,prayed and met Fadly after dat....i wanted to go to town initially but went to suntec instead..ahhh our fav place...heheh its always bugis, suntec,suntec, bugis...hehe but when im with him, anywhere is good...i cud be in a jungle with mosquitoes and ghosts around n it'd still be good..hehe...We bought clothes...well i bought a dress n he bought a shirt at Topshop...He tried the shirt on n i think he looks good...yeahhh...ehehe..

We went to tampines mall's toys r us right after to get her sis her bday gift....bought her barbie doll's bathtub set she wanted..hehe..reminds me of my younger barbie days..heh..infact i still have my only barbie well kept in its box..a doctor barbie...something with sentimental value..

He sent me home... i had a gd time today...i feel very happy and loved...i just looovvee it! i just loooovveee him... :)...

Thank you dear, for the wonderful time u gave me....*yawn* tink i'll clean up my room abit, wash up n sleep...Nyte world! Nyte my cats, nyte my love... *smileZ*

fall in luv@1:05 a.m.

Went to NVPC to collect a handbook before goin to work just now....a car almost knocked me down when i was crossing the rd...i tripped ... luckily the car managed to stop on time...pheWWWw!!!

Went to work after dat...did my reports and then the pc went crazy....i had to stop halfway n finish it at home...*sigh*

But my evening was goooooOOD! Dined at Swensen's with my darlin...been a long time since we ate there...I had my usual Fish n Chips n he had his usual Chicken Muniere...n then we shared a Banana Split...God! I think ive been eating too much these days.. bonchet sey.. :( but its ok...Fad never complains so i guess its ok...hehe..Love him!

Missed the 1st part of DIA...infact i managed to catch only the last 15mins of the show....its ok...i'l get Suhaila or Kak Nor to relate to me the story tom...geram sey dgn fifi...everytime i watch the show, i feel like jumping into the screen n punch her over n over...Argghhh...evil woman!

Oh ya, my mommy went to visit her fren's husband in the hospital earlier on...she told me the doc said that he wont live long...its sad..i hope he gets to be placed among Allah's beloved hamba...InsyaAllah...

Im feeling sleepy...but i wanna wait for my darlin to come home...he's in jb with his gang...aiya..tink il go clean my room while waiting for him...k peeps...have a gd nyte!!....I feel delirious!....Nyte!

fall in luv@12:41 a.m.

My day was quite gd today... :) Had lots to do at work but I tried not to let them affect me too much...around 2pm shak came to my workplace to do some..ehem...well lets keep it a secret...haha

Met Imah after work...we went to Tampines Mall n CSQ...where else huh..? passed her her eclairs and bought her a bday gift... n then i bought for myself a lotion and an exfoliator from the Body Shop. Accompanied Imah to buy her pants and then i bought for myself a floral dress...(ohh i just love it!!!....just like laura ashley's!) i bought a knitted top to match my dress too!! yey! Fadly asked me to get him an ice cream...My dad asked me to get him chicken rice..hehe mcm2...i got them whatever they wanted n took a cab home...

Waited for Fad to come back from work..Met him around 10.20pm. We ate Nasi Ayam n Ice cream...wow I had too much to eat today...had nasi goreng for lunch. Bought fries n goreng pisang n cookies n eclairs...yikes...mana lah tak gemok... :(

Juz got home..gona wash up and go to bed..been waking up late these past few days...Nyte2 everyone..n all cats in this world too.... *HugZ*

fall in luv@11:01 p.m.

Hallooo.....hmm...i feel better today...y? coz i managed to clear all my eclairs n more orders are coming...Alhamdulilah...ehhehe...yea yeah...boring topic of eclairs and cream puffs everyday huh?....let me stop...
Had to work late again today...im beginning to feel i have no social life at all...*sigh* work work and more work...i wudnt wanna be a slave to work...dats crazy...wasnt feeling too well...Fadly mentioned dat i shudnt prioritize work over my own health....but had loads of things to settle n so, i had no choice....
Reached my workplace and was greeted by SUhaila's lack of interest in work as well..hahah..whats wrong with us anyways?!
The meeting ended quite early today...Fadly fetched me home...Miss him lots...
Went up for a while before Serlynna called me to collect her eclairs n sign my savings plan.
Fadly called when i was still downstairs with ina.told him id call him back ASAP....Called my darlin 10 mins later n he's already asleep...Sorry i kept u waitin :(....hmmm....i guess i shud be in bed too by now..another boring day awaits me......looking forward to meet Shak at work tom tho...hehehe....
Gdnyte!

fall in luv@11:56 p.m.

Wheww...i woke up real late today... and yet, my body is still aching...my thigh n arms especially. Cud hardly lift myself up from the bed dis mornin..must be the result of forcing myself to carry those heavy boxes for the carnival... :( gonna ask my fav masseur(my mom) to massage me in a while..i really really need one mom!!!.....

Had to get out just now.Cudnt bear staying another second alone in the house...Luckily Falah was free to accompany me out. Hammy tagged along...thanks...I dont know whats wrong with me...Needed to get out but somehow I wasnt in the mood for anything at all..Pretended to be happy tho my mind was elsewhere. I snapped in the middle of our hmmm...what do i call it? shopping spree? ..whatever...im glad it was maghrib then coz I cud at least take wudhu and pray to ease my mind a bit. After prayers, i decided to go back home...felt like crying. Both of them were shocked to see me like dat....but i really cudnt fight the feelings and i left. Empty...I sat at the bustop oblivious to every single thing that was happening around me..suddenly Falah came n hugged me...I cudnt control my tears anymore...the tears just wont stop. a small gal infront of me looked at me and was shocked to see a bigger gal crying i guess..hahaha..A nyonya sitting beside me took advantage of my vulnerability...Asked for a dollar...n suddenly, when i turned, she was crying too..hahah...we were all shocked n burst out laughing..ahhahaahha Im glad i have friends like them...not only there for me to see me laugh...but are always there to share the pain as well...felt better after dat. Decided against goin home n sat at orange julius instead...

Nud came to collect the eclairs just a while ago..not only did she support me...but was willing to come all the way just to collect it so i wont have to deliver it myself...im so grateful...thanks alot!!! I guess this proverb "when ure happy, ur frens know u and when ure down, u know ur frens" is true....really true...when ure having probs, dat's when u get to see who are the people who really2 care abt u.....

Missing u...

"Love is an act of endless forgiveness, a tender look dat becomes a habit"

fall in luv@10:50 p.m.

Its 11.42pm n im knackered...
The bazaar is finally over. PhewwW!hmm but my mind still cudnt rest..
My body is aching from all the hard work but i cant get my eyes to close n sleep. Still thinking of what im gona do with the cream puffs...hahaha God help me... I planned to ask Fadly to accompany me to suntec to window shop...but i was too tired...exhausted..had to cancel the plan :( Must see him tho..no matter how tired i was (or am)....i asked him if he cud come to my block instead n he said "can no problem"..he's such a dear...brought down some cream puffs and an ice lemon tea.....he said hes buying a tray of eclairs from me...i was shocked...thanks for the support despite being told it was kinda expensive...Love him...

I think Im goin thru depression *sigh* i dont know...i think too much.Im glad i have wonderful friends. Thanks for helping me u guys. My volunteers...fuad (who came down very early in the mornin juz so he cud help me set up the stall)hamzah,fizah, hashim(who went to sg poly n then to the stall to help) didi, aden, syafiq, fazly, mamat,azhar n shafiq..thanks! Suhaila, for her help... My fren..shakirah..who helped and supported me tho she wasnt feeling too well (im sorry u lost ur hp :( )
my Cousin...Melati for buying my eclairs..n more eclairs..haha...n her husband for carrying the things and helping me transport the goods back to the office free of charge! (wonderful people)....And last but not least..My beloved Mom..for always being there for me...for always trying to make me feel that hey its not so bad..for always wanting whats best for me...in my work, my outlook, my well being...i love her to bits!!.....i was in a bad mood just now n talked to her in a very rude manner but she cud still understand n tried her best to make me feel better...LOve u mom...so much! The only person whom i think loves me unconditionally....
Let me stop here before i cry even more..
THANKS AGAIN....Only Allah can repay ur kindness..... :)

fall in luv@11:42 p.m.

Dear Falah n Shak....here I am...adding an entry...happy?! hehehe

Oh my God! guess what? I did a horrible thing just now....hahah
I wanted to treat my darling to Madagascar...I told him.."Ok meet me after Maghrib say around 7.25 and we'll go watch the 7.45pm show"...I reached home from work at about 6.45pm. Called him and we talked for a while..then I said "Oklah I wanna get ready, I dont wanna be late" hahhahha confident confident..
I hung up the phone and grabbed my towel.
"Hmm what to wear, what to wear" I asked myself. So instead of going to the toilet, I sat on my bed looking straight at my wardrobe. My bed suddenly looked so tempting (Not to mention my fluffy pillows..hahah). I saw my cat sleeping sooo peacefully at the foot of my bed and said maybe I shud nap for 5mins. In my heart "Oh God please don't make me oversleep"..
Within seconds, I was in dreamland dreaming of Fadly waiting for me and me being late for the movie. I could still remember telling myself in my dream "ahaha alah, its just a dream, im not late!"....

RinGGGGgggggggGGg!!! the phone in my room rang (I was still dreaming by the way) and I answered the phone...Oh my God..It was Fadly! (only I wasnt dreaming this time round!hahha) I asked him the time...and it was 8pm! I panicked! Was angry at myself for spoiling my own plans but scolded him instead.Gosh I AM crazy! Poor him. I hung up the phone.Searched for my hp..found it in my bag outside my room...no wonder i cudnt hear it ringing..There were 4 missed calls and 2 messages...good Lord! I hope he isnt mad at me!! Sorry dear...I showered n grabbed a top n pants w/o thinking much this time..ahahah...
Flipped thru LIFE! and saw an 8.45pm show available. Called my poor darling and he was still waiting.God, he's such a dear. I came down to the carpark..looked at my baby n cudnt stop laughing.....(I must be insane!) said sorry n he smiled. God, suddenly I was falling in love with him again. He could still smile?? I wud be blowing my top if it was him who did dat! He's a wonder I must say...Thank God for blessing me with someone like him...LOve Him!

We managed to catch the 8.45pm show. He dint get to get his Mini Eggs tho..coz I went to grab my brownie and then we were late for the show..(haaaaa...my fault again *sigh*)..I'm sorry dear...will get u 10,000 mini eggs in return..hehe...

Got home around 11pm. Hungry but Happy and hmmm....So so in love...after 4 years, it's amazing how I can still feel this love burning so strongly...Amazing.....Alhamdulillah :)

fall in luv@11:57 p.m.

The result is finally out...he got in...how do i feel? happy for him...but at the same time sad coz i know we will be apart quite alot.

But i know whatever it is im experiencing, whatever it is God has decided for me, is for the best...I just hope God will make me stronger so that I can give him my support n be happy at the same time...

Met my frens n as always, they cheered me up...layan my karenah...thanks shak n nud.... I went for a retail therapy. Bought a dress..the auntie kinda forced me into buying...brought 5 more dresses for me to try...ahha...(shak for ur info i went to marks an spencer on my way back n spent more!! ahha...)

Poured my heart out..now i feel better. i think all i need is an assurance and reassurance. but how do i get him to understand? maybe time will make him see...i dont know.Glad i have an understanding family. w/o them, it wudve been harder for me to cool down a lil. I love my mom so much....she was very supportive...funny how i used to think she wud never understand me....
I came home crying n dint even bother to hide it from her...n she understood....
she said something n i laughed...then i realized that yeahh i look silly crying like a baby...!! hahah..I love her...shes not feeling well n yet she layan my antics anyways...Love u mom!!!

Im not so scared anymore...he gave me his word n i believe he will keep it. I have faith in this relationship n especially in him...Love him with all my heart....im sure he knows dat too....

For now, I need to be positive....n will be...

fall in luv@9:43 p.m.

Hmmm....yesterday was a confusing day for me...I was happy and yet,concurrently, I had lots of worries in my head ..so yeah, i was a confused gal yesterday...:S

Saw the targets set for me this year.
PhewwWww! it's gonna be a very very challenging 2005 im sure.

I took a deep breath and sat down trying hard to calm myself down. I organized my thoughts and the things I have to complete or achieve or prove..? sigh...i dont know which word describes it best...?

Met up with Sheerin n Falah n Hamzah to finally finalise 2005 Calendar of events. Had a single turkey bacon, a papparoti, an ice lemon tea, a few sweets and a gd laugh....Managed to put my personal probs aside for a while...ahh thank God...ThanX y'all :)

Reached home at 11.30pm. Knackered but satisfied nonetheless....It was a fruitful discussion...

Chatted with my mom fer a bit, washed up and tried to close my eyes but I cudnt sleep...My mind just wudnt rest. Worrying thoughts seeped in again...Argghhh....he called n cheered me up a lil...but still..the worries linger up till now. This Sunday, I hope things will go well for him... I closed my eyes..wishing all my feelings were gone :::.

fall in luv@1:24 p.m.

Haloz..dis isnt the owner speaking..Dis is ahem..falah.. juz trying to curi ikan gelame kat blog dia..

Mariah..or better known as MaryCury.Dunno how she got dat nick.maybe becoz she loves curry..or maybe she wants to be Mariah Carey.Hmm.. But Me and Hamzah calling her Arabbish..maybe becoz she looks arabic..but she's not.Hmm..k watever it is..I love her(my favorite staff of d yr).Hehe ciaoz

fall in luv@1:38 a.m.